There isn't a day that goes by that I don't miss you like crazy. It's hard to think of living out my life without you in it, although I've accepted the fact that I don't have a choice it doesn't make it any easier to deal with. Today didn't go well in court, but I promise I will not give up I will be filing an amendment. If losing you wasn't enough now I'll have to fight to get to see Dakota. I am trying to be strong but when your dealing with one heartbreak after another it's pretty hard. I keep praying for God to give me strength and purpose. I have to force myself to do anything, I feel like I'm stuck in slow motion with very little motivation. And even though I don't do much of anything i feel so exhausted all the time. I sometimes find myself just wandering around with no real direction trying to figure out what I'm supposed to be doing that might make a difference somehow. Dear Lord please guide me in the direction I should go in order to find purpose for my life. Please watch over our family and friends and be with those who are hurting. I love you Lord Amen I need to get to sleep Chris my sweet son I'll be back tomorrow night. I love you honey (((hugs))) night night xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Love, Mama
Love, Mama