I love you and miss you every single day. I received court papers for the amendment I filed in the mail today, I'm praying that God will be with us in court on the 14th. I know that you'll be with me in spirit and that is comforting too. It was snowing more today and I really thought we had enough already but I guess old man winter wasn't in agreement. I guess I can't be in denial any longer winter is definitely here, even though it's not official yet according to the calendar until the 21st. I had intentions of going to light a candle in remembrance of you on Sunday night but the weather was too bad. Oh I know I will always remember you without lighting a candle but it's significant because I would be getting together with other Mothers who have lost their children and lighting a candle in remembrance of your life and also thanking God for the opportunity to have had you in my life for almost 26 years for which I will always be grateful. It's a strange thing how you never really realize how short life is until you lose someone so close to you. My heart goes out to any other mother who's ever had to lose a child because the grief is horrible and excruciatingly painful. I have also been grieving for the loss of your future and for the kids my heart aches with an overwhelming sadness for them. I pray that through all of the pain and sadness each one of us not only realizes the value of our own life, but will also do whatever possible to make a difference in another persons life. I know that Chris always cherished his family and friends and wanted to make a difference in our lives and theirs.While we know he did make a difference in all of our lives when he was here with us. Let's let him know that through his death he's still making a difference, knowing that there is so many people here who are hurting and we are able to make a difference whenever we reach out and help someone, we know we'll be pleasing God and lightning someones load, and I believe Chris will also be smiling down on us too. Dear God thank you for always being there and giving me strength Please watch over our family and friends and keep them all safe. I love you and praise you Amen I'll talk to you again tomorrow my sweet son. I love you so very much and am always missing you. Night night sunshine. (((HUGS))) xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Love Always and Forever, Mama
Love Always and Forever, Mama