I love you and miss you so much honey. Some mornings I wake up and it's like you just left us, which has me sad and crying a lot. I still can't believe your really gone. Just facing the realization that no amount of time is ever going to change the fact that your not here with us anymore is so difficult. It is now a matter of going on without you and finding purpose in each new day. I know that you would want me to be happy, but it's so hard to be when a piece of my heart is missing. You were a very important part of our family and your absence has left me with a persistent heartache like no other. Now that the hustle and bustle of the Christmas season is winding down, I will start reading again. Because I feel like I'm falling apart all over again and reading more will hopefully help me get it together again. I am also clinging onto the hope I have in God that I will see you again someday. This fact and reading will make the difference in whether I fall deep into another bout of depression or not. I'm working tomorrow so I need to get to sleep now. I will talk to you again tomorrow my sweet son. Dear Lord please watch over our family and friends and keep them all safe. I will continue to trust in you for strength and guidance. I love you and praise you Amen Night night Chris my sunshine I love you. (((HUGS))) xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Love Always, Mama
Love Always, Mama