I love you and miss you sweetie. I haven't been blogging faithfully lately because I'm temporarily without internet access, but I'm at the library tonight so here I am. I visited you at the cemetery earlier and found that the snow is all cleared and someone else is buried next to you now not sure who, since there is no marker yet. I still have a hard time believing your really gone. I just never really imagined living without one of my children, oh sure I always knew it was possible but prayed the day would never come. I am still praying for God to give me the strength and the desire to get through each new day without you in it. Some days I feel like I'm wandering aimlessly through life, but then God will give me a clear sign to get me back on track. He has brought me this far and I know he will never leave me of forsake me. I read a story today by June Scobee Rodgers today she lost her husband Dick when the space shuttle challenger exploded back in 1986. June asked all the same questions I have why, God why? June referenced a book she read as a child called The Power of Positive Thinking by Dr. Peale, in which he writes about how God is in control of our lives and that he does help us in our times of need. I will read the book too and then I'll read her memoir book called silver Linings. It's amazing how God will even show us what to read when we seek him. Dear Lord please watch over our family and friends and keep them all safe. I will always trust in you for everything I need. I love you and praise you Amen I love you and miss you Chris and though my heart still aches from missing you, I know your never far because your always on my mind and forever in my heart. Night night my sweet loving son. (((hugs))) xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
Love Always, Mama
Love Always, Mama