I love you and miss you more than words can say. I listened to some of your favorite songs today, and added some photos to your pages. I am feeling overwhelmed today the best way to describe it is just when I start feeling somewhat better I have another really sad and painful day. I have felt pain and sadness before from losing people I love, but what I'm feeling now is an even more intense emptiness because you are my son and we were close and I couldn't help you and now your gone forever and I can't hold you anymore and it hurts so bad my heart is broken. I feel like I'm standing still in time while life goes on all around me, it's an eerie kind of loneliness that I've never felt before. Even though I know I'm not really alone it's painful for all of us, but the loneliness is still there and very real. I realize there is nothing I can figure out or understand and to ask why is to question fate. I have been writing, crying and praying and now I am asking God to help me live again, I must trust in him and have faith that he will bring me through this pain and despair. Dear Lord thank you for giving me strength to get through each new day without you I would be lost. Thank you for blessing me with a wonderful family and friends who care. I love them all dearly. Please watch over them and keep them all safe. I love you my sweet son and I miss you terribly every single day. I will talk to you again tomorrow. night night (((hugs))) xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Love Always, Mama
Love Always, Mama