I love you and miss you so much Chris. I can honestly say I never dreamed I'd ever have to spend the holidays without one of my beloved children. I still keep hoping I'll wake up and it won't be true that your gone, bur I know your spending Thanksgiving and Christmas with Jesus this year. I was blessed to have spent 25 Thanksgivings and Christmases with you all of which I'll always be grateful. I keep thinking about the words you wrote in one of your writings for God to bless you with the strength to make it through the day and if you didn't then please let your family know you didn't want it to be this way. I know I can speak for our entire family when I say that none of us wanted it to be this way either. Then you went on to say that you were just trying to do whatever it took to stay sane and ease the pain. I know you wrote that earlier this year in June and I know that you were struggling all year since your release date in March. As much as I miss you I do know that your not suffering anymore and I thank God for that sweetheart. I know we'll be together again someday in heaven and none of us will be suffering as we do in this world. This is something we should all be looking forward to even though it's hard for some people to realize. Dear Lord thank you for all the blessings you have given me. I am grateful for the holiday seasons we were blessed to spend with Chris, I know he's safe in heaven with you this year. Please watch over our family and friends and keep them safe. I love you Lord Amen I am pretty sleepy so I'm off to bed Chris I love you and miss you sweetie. night night (((hugs))) xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
Love, Mama
Love, Mama